A day in the life of...

I know it's only been 5 days since I moved to my new home inEssex, but everything seems to have slotted in a meshed perfectly together. Ive only known my classmates and housemates for 5 days and yet it's as if we've known each other for years. Living on my own has been one of the greatest experiances and events in my life so far. I am even happier now that I am away from my family and all the people causing me grief in my home town. I hated that place and nearly everyone in it, but now I'm away from that place and finally living my life MY way, I have been so happy! And another thing that's happening...IM WANTING TO DRAW MORE!!! I think I'm getting my Mojo back and it's GREAT!!!!! YAY!!!

       ...I think the only downfall that has found me in my happy disposition is the fact that I am so far away from my beloved...I miss Phil so so much it hurts. He is the most sweetest and amazing person I have ever met in my life, I have never felt this way about anyone before. In a previous entry I said about our 3 day trip to Portsmouth. Well he sent me a gift, a memory photo booklet of our time there...And I was so overwhelmed and happy, I nearly cried in the cafe when I opened it. It was so beautiful and lovely, I will cherish it forever. He means the world to me, he is my everything, I will love him eternily, I'm sure of it!


I feel so calm and non-emotional right now...as if I've been drained and just want to take it easy...It's a nice feeling...and a feeling I miss quite a bit...I hope I get more often now that i truely have time to myself every now and again...But god, do I miss Phil...


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       Well, I'm all setteled in to my new home and it's great! My house mates are all into the same thing as me and we get on famously, I already know my way around the area which is great. Ive already made friends and got into a cool group on my course and they all into the same things as me and have a very simular sense of humor, and last night I had the greatest, triple round of Muffin Sex EVER!!!....Before any of my readers leave comments like 'WTF!? MUFFIN SMEX?!! EEEEEEEEW!!!' no, it's not what you think. Meaning that we had amazing sex, then ate some of my friends awesome double chocolate chip muffins!

    But yeah as I was saying, I am really happy here, though it's going to be very weird and lonely without Phil here. I mean sure, I know he'll visit, but he'll be far away when he isnt visiting :(  But I'm sure I'll get on ok, and this will be good for me I think, it'll be a great boost in my confidence and also it'll just be awesome, I guess that's really all I can say lol!


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      There are about 11 cardboard boxes filled with my clothes, books, films, little things that collected together, make my life and most of who I am, sitting in my bedroom, waiting for Sunday, the day that I move from my home to my new home of Southend, Essex. I never thought that I would be living up to one of my young teenage promises, moving out when I'm 20. Regardless of me moving out because of Uni, moving out is still moving out, and in many respects I'm excited, or should be. I get to start my life, relatively a-new, ,meeting new people, having my own home, living my own life without my parents breathing down my neck...But I still seem unsure and afraid of this whole event. I know no one in Essex, and although freshers week is soon, I dont know if I'll be able to make friends easily as it is a new environment, but on the otherhand, I am very good with people and I'm outgoing enough to hide my nerves ^^   I guess it's just that all of this happened so fast, literally. First I had finished my HND, not expecting to go to Uni becuase of lateness, then all of a sudden, I'm accepted in to do a BA, without much time to really REALLY think about all of this. I guess what I'm really afraid of is being completely on my own at first...But at least I know that I have my boyfriend Phil, my best friend Wakely and a few others in my life that will always be there ^^    You know what? I should totally be more chipper and excited about this whole affair! :D 

  
       Today I returned home from a three day get-a-way to Portsmouth with Phil, and it was the loveliest 3 days of my life so far, I swear! We saw three movies together, went to the Spinicar tower, Portshill...hill?! :S But I think I enjoyed going to the Blue reef aquarium the most. Both of us taking photos together, seeing the creautures I love the most, I've never done anything like all that I did those past three days with anyone before, especially a partner. I really enjoyed it and cant wait to do more things like this! I just didnt think that I would find someone else who would enjoy doing this kind of stuff with me, and someone who doesnt mind my little quirks ^^  I loved taking photos together too, he is a great photographer (even if he doesnt think so lol).


    I also managed to see two of my college friends (as well as two older friends) as a farewell tonight, though we didnt hang out together for long. I've missed them both very much, Steph and I were laughing alot, while Lee had trouble keeping up. We went bowling, all three of us went on the DDR machine then went for a nice small meal in Luna, but I made out that I had to get ...but as some of you reading this may know, my friendship with Lee havent been too great theese past few months, and although it's now getting slowly better, I'm on occassion wishing that it was still a bit distant for the while...The power of 'the word of mouth' is very strong, stronger than I remembered and talking to him before he went home made me feel slightly uncomfortable, and made me remember simular situations happeneing in the past, raising warning bells...although honesty is a thing that I greatly respect and something that I also uphold everyday, I keep on forgettinghow hurtful it can be when someone sheds a possible truth when it was previously shrouded. But it is a difficult situation. Everyone says that they want to know the truth, but if they didnt know before, and were then told, surely that's more painful, as I discovered sort of today? I know that I will always be honest with everyone and as much as I can with myself, but oh how I wish I could know who was telling me the truth.


That's all for tonight folks, expect more tomorrow.



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